people need people

i was in rome on one of my romantic weekends for one, at that most thriving and bustling of places, the spanish steps. i was sitting down, looking at the masses of people (and the babes) and suddenly travelling alone seemed a bit hollow. i had always enjoyed the distance, the isolation from everyone else, but that night the old song "people need people" seemed to ring truer than ever.

that night i concluded that humankind and humanity has got to be the first imperative in life. smiles, sympathy, compassion, good company, and the value of the human life and human happiness are what i shall hold truest. please dont say that sounded gay, its true.

what has been on my mind lately is this: i saw st. peter's basilica and barcelona's familia sagrada church and while they are absolutely magnificent, whats the point? i mean, why devote copious amounts of energy to worship an entity that never seems to respond, never seems to change anything, when you can devote that energy to the reality of humanity?

i can think of two reasons; firstly, that people are so lost in emotion that they wont stop till they get enough, (sorry too much 80's music recently) or secondly, that they have, like kierkegaard, jumped into the abyss of faith's seventy thousand fathoms, and feel duty bound to worship that which gave us life and made life so special.

if i could be absolutely convinced god is real, and thats a huge if, i will bite the bullet and worship that which gave humans life- because the source of life is special and demands that attention, regardless whether attempting to relate to it is like attempting to relate to a brick wall or not.

i guess the point of this post is to say that i am first a humanist, but i would be a committed christian if i could know god existed. which is where it gets difficult: how can i be convinced god is real? blind leap into the abyss? objective proof? i quote fox mulder: the truth is out there. more on the nature of faith soon

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